Restless in Silence

I am waiting – restless in silence
And you’ll never know what name you should call me
Tonight –

I am lonesome and I have no place to go
No one to look out to window for
No one knocking lightly in on the bathroom door –
My blood is still thinning
I’m lost in the wind now –
All I can hear is the sound of your voice
As it’s twisting and spiraling down to my face
Catastrophes climbing the length
Of my spine

I am waiting – restless in silence
And you’ll never know what name you should call me
Tonight –

Our life lost with time
Your memories still haunt me
As I lie down to sleep
My head on your pillow
Come tuck me in just like you have done –
But not since my childhood
Has passed
How you sleep with your pillow so far from my bed?
I guess I’ll never know –
You stopped making sense long ago

I am waiting – restless in silence
And you’ll never know what name you should call me
Tonight –

Time has no sense of feeling detached
From all your words
That rip slowly
Just like all the times when I thought you weren’t lying
Begging to stay –
Right here at my side
But as the sun comes up you run – and you hide
You ask me if I love you – Yes
But I don’t know…

I am waiting – restless in silence
And I don’t know what name I should call myself
Tonight –